I told the kids last night what today is. Finn said, "I miss Grandma." Ryan said, "Can we not talk about this?" It's really hard for her. Finn really doesn't remember a whole lot from his life with her. He had just turned two when she died. He remembers her through pictures and through the 1 year scrapbook she made him. Ryan tries really hard to remember. I can see it bothers her that she can't remember as well as she wishes she could. I feel the same way.
I will never stop missing her and needing her. There is so much I wish she was here for. Every time one of the kids does something special or new I long for her to be there to see it and share the happiness with. She was there for everything! I miss having her as a friend. She was the best friend! I miss having a mom! You never stop needing your mom. I miss having a person who makes the difficult times easier. I simply just miss her. There are no other words to say but that.
Here is a link to my 1 year post. http://www.lisakay-piecesofus.blogspot.com/2011/04/year-without-her.html
